It begins with me spilling out that I’m uncomfortable.
She says it’s important that I communicate this to Peter and to everyone else.
I tell her that it’s hard to have good ideas in frustration, in despair, in this atmosphere we live in today. That I’m having to fight negative thoughts about my work.
Everything seems so negative right now. I’m affected. I’m clamming up. I’m not having creative free thoughts.
She says it’s good to acknowledge that things are not good. And is very disappointed of me that I publish work that is not good. That is not what she understands by Contemporary Jewellery.
That being modest is important, to acknowledge my limitations. That when you acknowledge your limitations you can then work with them. That good work is known to originate from bad circumstances.
I am frustrated, I urge for excitement, I am becoming domesticated, looking inwards too much, drying up. And so are my ideas.
My tasks are to distance myself from my brand and focus in my Art. To get back to my original ideas and push them forward. Not to reinvent the wheel, because everything has been done before.
It needs to be my decision to do it, Its my work. Make good Jewellery she says…basta!
Pandemic State, a session with Monika Oct 30th
